I AM Feeling Myself These Days

I am such a mess that it's almost funny.

I wish I could say that I'm not feeling myself or that I'm having an off day, but it's becoming clearer everyday that I am exactly myself and that any good day that I experience is directly due to me not being myself. There isn't a single part of me that really is saying "Oh, I could improve on that to make myself happier." I am just apparently contented with a very messed up way of life.

I'm so fucked up. GAH.

- Jonathan